After the first surgery my husband started treating me in ways that were not like him. The primary thing that now makes me fully believe that he was experiencing some sort of mind control is remembering when he suddenly became sexually forceful. This was so completely opposite from who he was that it scared me. At the time I'd thought he was going crazy and I wanted to protect my children and I from his sudden strange behaviors. So I divorced him. (There were other reasons for the divorce also.)

By around 1990 my sister also started behaving so strangely that I told my whole family that I needed time to myself, which ended up being a complete separation due to the confusing mess that followed my request.

There have been many confusing and unexplainable occurrences, which I now realize were instigated by Hitler-style manipulations performed by the perpetrators of this holocaust. . .at a time when none of us were aware of being targeted by these criminals.

After this my life was slowly infiltrated with new groups of people, whom I am now realizing included members of organized stalking groups. One of them had even rented a room in my home. Strange things continued to happen, like my pick nic table being moved while I was away from home and my oldest daughter suddenly having spurts of uncharacteristic behavior. There were many prank phone calls...etc.

Around 1994 I had tried to reconnect with my family of origin, but my father had told me that this "would not be a good idea, because everyone was so angry" with me. It was unusual for my father to keep me from the family, especially since he now blames me for his not having contact with my daughters. And there was no reason, that I knew of, for anyone in the family to be remaining so angry with me.

I believe that both of my children and every person I was close to, also became victims of remote electronic mind control, to some degree.

In 1995 my own government took my Loudon, NH home and destroyed my business through their "rights of eminent domain." (They never compensated me for my business or loss of rental income.) This process was dragged on for over a year and was done with shocking cruelty - with threats to shove me into poverty if I spoke to the media after the Manchester Union Leader took off with a dishonest article about their taking of my home. Everyone who knew me knew that there was "something off" - something wrong with this un-necessary taking of my home, in order to move a road that did not really need moving. But nobody did anything about it. There seemed to be nothing that could be done. Even local lawyers refused to help me. (My name was Sharon Buck at this time.)

In the late 1990s I was referred, by a "friend," to a dentist who suddenly cut an un-necessary deep gash into my upper gums. At the time I thought he was just psycho and I never returned to him. But I now believe he may have installed a micro chip.

I also had strange experiences with a doctor, which this same "friend" had recommended. . .and it appears that those medical records have since been erased. . .as if I had never seen her. (This was Dr. Deadra Margaret Fuller)

After ending a 4 year relationship, with a man who VERY obviously targeted and perhaps even taken over by the criminals of this holocaust, more weird things began happening - things like a parachute, on the instructor I was in line to jump with, suddenly not opening, doors slamming in my house in the middle of the night, my getting sudden flares of fatigue, fevers, nausea, plants suddenly dyeing in my garden...etc.

By the end of 2001 most of my pets were suddenly either dead or missing. One daughter had been suddenly hospitalized with an unexplainable neurological problem, which effected her speech and motor skills. My other daughter was being brainwashed by a perpetrator through chat rooms on the internet and secret late night phone calls. The chief of police in Andover, NH was connected to this and had ripped into me in public parking lot - trying to make it look like I was the criminal and that I was wrong for hiring a private investigator to help save my daughter who had gone to meet this man and was missing for nearly 24 hours.

My healthy dog had suddenly died of a strange illness that sounds like some of the reports I now read on the remote ability to effect internal organs. The vet said her spline had been twisted, but that there was no physical explanation for it.

I think these criminals probably shifted me from the experiment list to the 'kill quickly' list, in 2001 after I shared a precognitive dream I'd had about drugs or poisons being put into the Concord, NH public water supply. I'd shared this dream out of concern and with the hope that the criminal act could be prevented. I had even called the public water supply to report my concerns. I hadn't realized that this was just a small part of a much larger plan and that the criminals would come after me. (I now see how this was a threat to those who were actually doing this in MANY cities. It is now being proven that fluoride is harmful and that there have been reports in 2008, that mood altering drugs were found in public drinking water. It is said that anti depressants help HAARP and its supporting technologies to perform successful mind control on unsuspecting victims.)

In may of 2001, when my home burned down in a suspicious fire, ironically there were two other fires on the same night, which deterred the fire marshal from doing more investigating into what REALLY happened to my home. The process to put out the fire was suspicious, said the fire marshal. The fire seemed to have been put out and then re-started. . .destroying my writings and thousands of dollars, which I had been in a room next to the one where the fire had started and had been contained to.

In 2003, my father received some sort of email or letter, which he was extremely upset with me about. He never told me what it said, but he obviously thought it was from me. At the time I thought it was something my sisters had jealously done, in order to come between my father and I. I now feel sure that the perpetrators were responsible for whatever was written to hurt my father and once again destroy my relationship with him.

Through the summer and fall of 2003, my sister kept leaving messages on my phone which stated things like, "come home Sharon we just want to get you the help you need..." These were delivered in a tone that was so obviously sick and psychopathic that I began feeling scared, not only for her, but for myself.
This theme of me suddenly becoming "mentally ill" began with the police officers whom I'd asked to investigate my brother's death. Somehow they had convinced my family that my brother's death was a accident and that I had a mental problem for thinking otherwise. At the time I had not been aware of the extent of the targeting and how it includes parts of law enforcement agencies. These events now have me convinced that my brother was indeed murdered by these criminals, with a remote directed energy weapon that made him go unconscious as he drove his four wheeler over an embankment and into a river. Medical reports say that he was unconscious BEFORE he hit the water. He did not drown.) Also,Myrl, a victim and perpetrator of this holocaust, had brought up a weird sinerio about a brother suddenly dieing just a couple days before my brother's death. I have since realized that is a common tactic of the most evil parts of this operation - they actually let us know what they are going to do. . .like a cat playing with a mouse before the final strike!

My last conversation with my father was so distressing that I cried and prayed through the next night for answers and had a dream, which showed him being a petophile. Because I trusted my dreams I thought this must be true, especially since he'd seemed threatened by my habit of looking at and healing the past...etc. Words can not express the grief I felt in the following days. I think I cried harder than I ever had. I loved my father and didn't want to think this of him. But it seemed to explain some of his unusual behaviors. (I was not aware of the remote mind control technologies at this time.)

Now that I hear about how the criminals who target us have technologies (Like "HAARP Weapon") that can actually remotely project dreams into people's heads and effect their thinking and belief system with subliminal messaging while they are asleep, I am thinking that this dream may not have been a real dream, and that the vague memories which followed it, may have also been projected into my head by them.

In January and February 2004 I had a nasty run in with one of these perpetrators, in California. This man even had secret rooms in his homes - rooms that contained children's bunk beds and computers. After I left I had a dream that he "had tried to plant a chip in my body, in order to control me sexually..." I did not understand what this meant at the time. It is now more than obvious.

The targeting hit severe levels in 2005, as I tried to take off with a publication, which focused on healing the past and bringing more Love into humanity, but also contained prophetic dreams about horrible disasters killing masses of people. (I now see how this was a threat to criminals who planned to orchestrate such disasters)

Within the seven issues of "The Personal Journal" I also wrote a "Pretentious Fiction" story called "Heights of Wisdom", which included a statement, by a woman named. "Wisdom", about a dark/evil leader who pretended to be working with God, but is really evil and causes mass destruction in the world. It also included a comment about an evil men's group, which politicians belong to. (My intuitive side often comes out in my writings, although I had not realized how much until recently.) Within this publication I also started sharing my precognitive dreams, which kept showing destructive storms and masses of people being harmed or in danger...black clouds coming over us...etc.
In June of 2005, when I first started putting out the "forewarnings of Disasters" my sister suddenly exploded into a public slander, on the internet, trying to declare me insane - paranoid and evil. This was extremely unusual, at the time, not only unusual that she'd do such a thing, but also unusual in the fact that EVERYONE who knew me knew I was the opposite of paranoid...etc. I had traveled all over the USA, Canada, Peru and Hawaii, ALONE. . .and never locked my doors and left keys in my cars...etc. I was well known as being "TOO trusting" and fearless. (My sisters actions with this, as well as her weird phone calls in the previous two years, lead me to believe that she is the one who had a mental problem, because I was not aware of the remote mind control technologies that were being used on her.)

The most obvious organized stalking, threats and weird phone calls started up in the end of 2005. Prior to this, I'd just thought I was having a lot of bad luck. This is when I realized something was horribly wrong. But I assumed that it was some sort of local occult that was against my writings. . .and I continued perceiving many of the things they'd do as spiritual experiences, because I as not aware the existence of HAARP Weapon and its supporting satellite technologies. . .or of what criminals were doing with them.

As I wrote and distributed "The Personal Journal", I was constantly hit hard. I struggled with periods of severe pain in my head, dizziness, nausea, hair loss and numbness...etc. I thought I may be becoming terminally ill and put more focus into my writing. . .in an effort to complete my life's work. As I did this around 7 of my printing machines suddenly stopped functioning properly. My computers kept crashing. My whole neighborhood was suddenly gone in a flash flood, from an unusual concentration of rain, which formed a lake behind a "plugged culvert"... (four of my neighbors were killed!)

Directly after the flood, a journalist and her husband zoomed in to "help" me, because I no longer had a home to go to. When I got to their home my vehicle was boxed in so that I could not leave without them moving their own vehicles. (There was plenty of room for this to not have to be this way) While I was there I was drugged and raped and lost over a week of time.. .and was brainwashed into thinking that my neighbor's deaths were my fault. After I got away from them I was receiving threatening phone calls. An untruthful article was written about me in the Keene Sentinel News paper, the media and radio were slandering me. . .etc. (My legal name was Namatari Neachi at this time.)

When I later reported the rape to their local police chief, nothing was done about it and the tire on my car suddenly went flat while I was in the police station talking to the chief.

Since the summer of 2005, many people, whom I didn't even know, suddenly started treating me rudely everywhere I went. Even my own children began turning against me in ways that were confusing and not like them. And I continued to feel physically ill, although I'd spent thousands of dollars on medical testing in 2003, which came up with nothing wrong with me. I'd ended up in emergency rooms on several occasions. . .with sudden loss of depth perception, blurred eye sight, hearing loss, nausea, severe pain in my head and loss of balance...etc.

In 2006 I was lured to Alexandria Bay, NY by one of these perpetrators and nearly lost my life on more than one occasion, while I was there. It turned out that David grew up in this area where there exists a large base for an extremely satanic occult. (This man is associated with Bill Clinton who also owns an island in this area) The hell I went through while being stranded there could fill a whole book!

Since 2005 I have also been receiving cryptic threats and what appears to be repeated attempts to kill me in ways that would look like a natural death or an accident. Among other things, brakes on two of my vehicles seemed to have been tampered with to the point of complete loss of brakes, while driving. (This happened twice within one year) My vehicles have been tampered with a lot.

Shortly before January 18, 2006 I publicly declared that the Lupus, which I'd just been told I had, was caused by harmful energy that was being directed at me from a satanic occult. I felt this truth to the core of my soul. (Everyone thought I was nuts, but I wasn't that far off, even though I did not know it was being done through secret technologies like HAARP.) After publicly sharing this I was attacked with directed energy so severely that it nearly put me back in the hospital. This sort of pattern continued to the point of causing me to refrain from writing about it on the web.

Since then I have noticed these sorts of patterns happening a lot. The attacks worsen when I write about what they are doing or when I intuitively hit on a truth that these perpetrators do not want the public to know about. (In fact, since I added this statement, I am undergoing another severe attack.)

In 2006 I learned, through the stalkers shoving it in my face, that my writings were being plagiarized. One of my songs became a hit sung by Tom McGraw and later. . ."The Shack" had obviously taken off with ideas and even names out of The Personal Journal. The criminals seemed to be doing this to hurt me, to anger me. . .obviously to intentionally making one of my fears come true. (There have been many other similar incidences)

In the spring of 2007 I borrowed money to escaped that area and rented a small cabin in the coast of Maine where I printed the first issue of "Sharon's Bud." I felt I did not have much longer to live and tried pouring my heart into a batch of writings for humanity. I didn't do a very good job of it, but it was the best I could do at the time.

In 2008, while I was producing the second issue of "Sharon's Bud," my youngest daughter was attacked by what sounded like a demonic invasion. Her description of this sounds the same as what Targeted Individuals experience with V2K experiences. She had been and still is a good healthy person and this was not normal for her. This was an isolated experience, which terrified her and made her feel so ashamed that she made me promise not to tell anyone, but I am telling it for the sake of her own future safety. (It is the secrecy around these criminal attacks, which enable them to continue.) In that same year she also suddenly woke with bruises in the shape of finger prints on the inner part of her upper arm. I believe she was drugged and raped.

Also in 2008 I sent a letter to my aunt, who was a Canadian Nun (I was wanting to go see her about this targeting stuff)and after a month of no response, I find out (through the internet) that she has suddenly died right around the time when she'd have gotten my letter. This also happened in 2006, when I was about to go see my Aunt Francis. She suddenly died before I could get to her. And in 2001, when I was about to purchase land from, and go live near, my friend Jim...he suddenly died of a heart attack.

There are several times when I had been drugged and do not know what happened to me. I am certain that I was drugged and raped while working for Central Refrigerated. The large trucking companies seem to be crawling with perpetrators who are involved in this - perhaps because of military involvement! I believe that many military personnel are victims of complete mind control and have become perpetrators.
Many of the vehicles that stalk me have veteran license plates - especially the more aggressive ones. One of them actually shot something into my tire on a highway. . .forcing me off the road. Batteries in my vehicles are often suddenly drained, somehow. My phone has sometimes been disabled before they surround me. And the list goes on. . .

In December 25, 2009 I ended up in the Portsmouth, NH emergency room with symptoms that mimicked a mild case of anthrax exposure. This suddenly started when I breathed in something that was placed in my room at a rooming house, in York Maine where two military boys had moved in directly after I had.

The hospital refused to run tests or help me. I remained in a lot of pain and having a hard time breathing and was suddenly coughing up huge globs of mucus that had little back dots in it. This was not normal! I had not had a cold or been ill prior to this attack. I tried calling several different places for help. But ironically, someone else in the same area had an anthrax exposure, directly after this happened to me (supposedly from a raw hide drum) and officials would not listen to me, because they were suddenly flooded with phone calls - an anthrax scare. (I believe these criminals are good at using distractions to hide their criminal activities.) These sorts of things shave also happened with many police departments. When I go to report something, the department I am heading for, is suddenly flooded with other calls and can not help me. . .and then the attacks against me get even worse.

In Feb of 2010 I was living in my car and writing "Out of the Dark"/"Into the Light" while being constantly harrased by organized stalkers. In this book I tried and failed to figure out who was targeting me. . .who was paying these people to come after me. I had not yet understood what was happening.

In 2010 and 2011 I aimed to resurrect "Sharon's Bud" into "The Heart Bud" and printed two issues of this publication. . .against unbelievable odds. Through this process I was hit with one obstacle after another. . .and THREE of my largest sponsors suddenly had disasters happen to them within a couple weeks of its printing. One was held at knife point in a robbery. One had water pipes suddenly burst above his shop. And one was suddenly hit with unusaul physical injuries.

Summer of 2011: I had begun sharing some of my experiences with John Dedakis - a CNN news writer. . .and then suddenly his son was found dead. Another "coincidence" or another distraction from the public finding out about this? I think it was murder. I'd even had a dream prior to this, which showed that "someone who is close to someone I know suddenly dies..." But I have no way of proving it. (Was that dream projected into my head to warn of what they would do if I continued talking to John? Very possibly.) But I didn't understand that until now.

In August, 2011 I was roped in by a "Private Investigator" woman who offered to help me, but ended up being a perpetrator who lured me to her home, set off gun shots in the middle of the night and then tried to convince me that it was D.Z. She'd told me that all the stalking and terror in my life would end if "we eliminate DZ. . .". My response was shock. And she persisted, "If you can't do it, I'll do it for you. I became a Private Investigator so I could take out these guys and beat them at their own game. Don't you want this to end? Don't you want it over? Don't you...etc?" She drilled me for a long time, trying to convince me that all my troubles would be over if D.Z. is "done in." or "eliminate." (This is when I first began finding out the deeper truths about the whole "Targeted Individual" process and that I had already been a victim of it for a very long time without realizing the full scope of it.)

Since I raced away and reported this woman to the police, I have been through literal hell, with constant around the clock gang stalking, threats, being drugged, being shot with lasers, (almost constant!) what feels like, high pitched pain inducing scans of my brain...etc. (Far worse than in previous years.) There even seems to have been a few attempts to abduct me.

Police did nothing to help me. Loudon police did not even file a report on this incident, which started in their town. A Milford, NH police officer proved to be a criminal part of this harassment. Instead of helping me he terrorized me, literally. And other police departments gave me such a runaround that it was obvious they were not going to do anything about to help me.

In the Fall of 2011 I had just gotten a driving job and had expressed to someone that I was going to fix my RV as soon as I got enough money saved. (The electrical system, brakes and motor had all been destroyed, within a couple days, in 2009.) Within a couple weeks, I got a call from a police officer, who informed me that my RV was just found to have the rear picture window smashed out of it. Then my job was sabotaged and the company I worked for tried, and may have even accomplished, sabotaging my Class A license with false DAC reports. (There have been many events like this in the past decade)

I feel that the only reason I am still here is because I've kept on the move or have been sleeping and living in my vehicle under Walmart and bank surveillance cameras as much as possible. And because God seems to be taking care of me in ways that are even shocking me.

I feel that every person, whom I had been close to, became victims of mind control, especially the family members whom I had been closest to, even though they are not all aware of it. This has become VERY evident in their uncharacteristic (even cruel) behaviors toward me. They are decent people who would be here for me if they were not being heavily influenced to do otherwise. I am 200% sure of this. I continue finding forgiveness for their inability to stand with me in this brutal fight.

Recently I had tried to re-connect to some of my old friends (the ones who were real) and have been shocked to find that they have been severely targeted without even being aware of it. One has completely lost her memory and thinks she must have "fallen and hit her head" and has spent years trying to regain some sense of control over her brain. Whatever is controlling her now seems extremely dark. My closest friend had lost her memory of me and now has an aneurysm. . .and her whole family had been hit with death and heart attack...etc., in 2005, when she tried to re-connect with me.

Another friend knew we were being targeted, but also thought it was being done via spiritual channels and by the man whom we were both associated with at the Concord, NH Yoga Center. She demonstrated unusual levels of fear, anxiety at the mere mentioning if his name...etc. This man is definitely a high level perpetrator in this holocaust. . .and is associated with an X president of the USA.(He's the one who had lured me to Upstate NY in 2006, where I nearly died.)Another friend who had been a vibrant reiki practitioner is suddenly in a wheel chair and seems to not be the same person she used to be. Most of my friends will not even answer my phone calls, although nothing had ever happened between us to justify this. I am sure that if I wanted to do more digging there would be even more shocking finds.

My writings have been being tampered with - altered or erased since 2001. All of the accounts I open on the web to share my experiences, seem to tampered with.

In the Fall of 2011 I had just gotten a driving job and had expressed to someone that I was going to fix my RV as soon as I got enough money saved. Within a couple weeks, I got a call from a police officer, who informed me that my RV was just found to have the rear picture window smashed out of it. Then my job was sabotaged and the company I worked for even tried, and may have accomplished, sabotaging my license with false DAC reports.

I am still under around the clock surveillance by organized stalking groups and am being almost constantly scanned and/or tortured with Remote Directed Energy Weapons. I have undergone severe levels of psychological harassment and tortures. It also seems like I am periodically attacked with chemicals and drugs. Some bring on sudden light headedness and vision impairment. Some burn my lungs. Some create sudden burning rashes on my skin - like when something was put in my shoes. Sometimes something is done that makes me feel like my skin is being bitten by bugs, although there are no bugs - (This recently happened TWO TIMES, just after I got an email offering "remedies for bed bugs.") There are no bed bugs. But in the past I've had two homes repeatedly infested with unusual accumulations of fleas. Another time something was put in my shampoo, which made my hair and skull feel. . .indescribably strange. Another time, lice was put in my shampoo. (Most of this was part of the tortures they put me through near Alexandria Bay, NY in 2006 and 2007 winter.)

My writing business was forced into bankruptcy in 2007. Other jobs I try to get since then are quickly sabotaged one way or another. Each time I try to take off with a new publication I am hit hard by organized stalking groups and remote electronic attacks. And the list goes on. . .

People are now saying that the capabilities of remote mind control with HAARP or satellites or whatever...did not exist until recently or is only "on the horizon" BUT THIS IS NOT TRUE! I HAVE BEEN WITNESSING AND EXPERIENCING THE REMOTE MIND CONTROL AND ELECTRONIC INVASIONS SINCE AT LEAST THE EARLY 1990S. I THINK EVEN SINCE 1985 OR 1986. And evidence is beginning to surface to show that these crimes were happening by the 1970s. (My mother died in 1977 of an unusual double strain of leukemia.)

I have changed my name twice and have moved a lot and these criminals still find me. It appears that I am under constant satellite surveillance. . .and am being tracked somehow. I feel that they may have put microchips in my body.

If you are thinking I am insane, at this point, you should know that I wish that were the whole truth, because insanity would be a heck of lot easier to deal with than what I have had to face, endure, experience and witness.

At this point I have already lost almost everything that is important to me. My life has already been mostly destroyed. It is not "courage" that drives my pen, it is anger at the injustice and cruelty toward humanity, people I love and I. I write because there is nothing else I can do about this.

In my heart I feel that the Truth will be shown at some point in time.

There is so much more to this than I list here. This is a minute fraction of the past couple decades. My story is truly unbelievable. It could fill a few books. My fight to survive this, on emotional, mental and physical levels, has been long and more difficult than words can even begin to express.

I didn't know I had so much inner strength. Each time I reach the end of my rope I somehow bounce back. My faith has carried me through a lot of it. But I don't know how much longer I can survive it, which is why I am writing this. I hope it helps to validate at least one other Targeted Individual. . .and helps them to realize that they are not crazy - that. . .the only COMPLETE insanity in ALL our situations exists in the satanic Hitler's who perform such cruelty and in those who just let it happen and do nothing to stop it.

I think my most painful loss is that of my own two children and the dreams I'd had of becoming a grandmother and being there for them in ways that my grandparents never could be for me. And the other most painful thing has been the stalker's threats to harm my children, if I keep speaking out or writing about this. Their last threats barked out, "You know what will happen if you don't stand down" and "Your daughter will understand when she goes through it."

I am still writing, because they've already severely hurt my children and I beyond complete repair, and I feel, in my heart, that hope for their future can only exist if this horrible "Targeting" and torturing of innocent people is completely exposed and then stopped. I think the criminals will keep on killing unsuspecting people even if I stop speaking out so there is no point in stopping.

I also feel that writing this may protect my children, because if the perpetrators do anything to them after I speak out about it, it just proves me right. If they leave my children alone, it just makes me look insane. I'd rather look "insane."